Pumulandit na Damdamin

Habang nakaupo ako sa harap ng aing computer, at napapanood ang mga videos at mga balita sa Tsunami sa Japan, (akala ninyo tungkol sa tamod ang blog ko ano?) napapaisip tuloy ako sa mga comments ng mga tao sa web.

Malapit na daw magunaw ang mundo.

Naiisip natin angmga bagay na ito kapag maramihang tao ang namamatay dahil sa pagbabago ng daigdig.

Pero ano nga ba ang nangyari? Gumalaw ang lupa sa ilalim ng dagat, gayua ng ginagawa niya sa loob ng 4 na bilyong taon. Walang kakaiba. Gumalaw nang ilang bilyong ulit ang kaloob-looban ng daigdig, kaya tayo may mga isla, mga bundok, mga dagat.

Ang pagkakaiba? Marami nang tao ang daigdig ngayon.

Marami na namang namatay na hayop dati noong wala pang tao. Ilang milyong ulit nang lumindol, hindi mo lang nakita.

Kaya lang naman tayo natatakot kasi hindi natin macontrol ang mga lindol, pagbaha, pagulan, tagtuyot, mga ipu-ipo at mga pagbagsak ng mga bato mula sa langit.

Pero wala namang bago.

Darating at darating iyan.

Tayo ang may problema. Hindi natin matanggap, na katulad ng pinakamaliit na dahon na lumulutang sa tubig, nasa kapangyarihan lamang tayo ng mga alon. Masyadong malalaki ang mga PRIDE at EGO natin na hindi na natin kayang tanggapin na maaari pa rin tayong bawiin ng dagat, lamunin ng lupa, o sunugin ng langit.

At walang kakaiba sa daigdig kung mangyayari iyon.

Oo, tao ka at ikaw ang pinakamatalinong nilalang sa ibabaw ng daigdig.

Pero hindi ka imortal. Katulad ka lamang ng ibang mga nilalang na may buhay sa ibabaw ng lupa. May hangganan ka lamang. Ikaw ay maaring madurog, masunog, mapisa, at pag hindi nakahinga sa anumang paraan, ikaw ay mamamatay.

Wala lang... Pumulandit lamang ang isipang iyan sa aking damdamin.

I Will Call You Agnolo

So Yesterday was day % at the poffioce for this week. It is my Rest Day today. Everyone keeps asking me what's new.

Absoluitely nothing.

Iv've decided to keep this more personal blog and update it everyday. It's starting to look futile. I begin thinking of what to write and I end up with a milllion things in my head, ending with no particular topic in mind.

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Enter frame to last night. I was undecided if I wanted to go clubbing. Of course I had a 5-pound bag in the way. I was at G;lorietta and I started to go online at aroung 3 pm, trying to fish out a couple of people who may be bored a s well, try to see if I can convince them to go out, have a few drinks. Have fun.

I haven't had fun in ages.

There was NOBODY online. And if there were, they were'nt speaking to me.

Someone asked me if I had friends.

I'm starting to believe I don't.

Then I went to smoke at the open area just outside Starbucks in G4, I saw one star... Actually I think it was aplanet. Itr wasn't twinkling.

Around me, a myriad of people with partners, regardless if friends or lovers, same-sex or what-nots, conversing with each other. If you hadn't brought someone, you were talklingwith someone on the phone. The coupole behind me was arguing.

Me? I was steadily staring at the star... er, planet.

Plato said people are born incomplete and we find our half-- our soulmates in the process of living.

I dare to say I may be born complete anyway but re fuse to accept it bec I am different.

For this reason I believe is why people tend to think I can handle anything... and it ios simply untrue.

I am petrified with being alone to fend for myself.

Let alone, have someone deend on me.

My broken faith has been abandoned by the people I loved the most and I do not know where to begin.

This is the first time in my entire existence that I have trully needed help and have not gotten a response in years.

And so begins my journey.

I will call you Agnolo. And you will be my friend.