20 years

Dear Agnolo,

Tumatanda na pala ako. 20 years na pala ang nakakaraan nang magkaroon ng YOUFRA sa Meycauayan. Matatanda na rin sila. Dati nung suali ako dun, bubunso-bunso pa ako, may mga pumasok din na bata pa sa akin, pero bata pa din ako noon.

Ngayon may mga pamilya na sila.

Tinanong ako ni Nino kanina, "O, ano na posisyon mo sa companya nyo?"

Ahente pa din.

Mnager na siya nung nagresign si Nino sa Hub, balak atang pumasok na manager din sa company namin. Nasa Sykes siya ngayon.

I feel so insignificant.

Buti nga hindi ko pa naabutan yung mga kasabayan ko talaga. May mga pamilya na. Malalaki na ang mga anak. May mga mag-aalaga na sa kanila, may mga magmamahal na sa kanila, at anak nila yun anuman ang gawin nila.

Ako, isang matinding kembot lang ng tadhana,mawawala sa akin ang nanay ko balang araw... ang isang kapatid ko, hihiwalay na yan, ang kapatid ko'ng babae, darating ang panahon at makakapag asawa sin yan. Ang mga pamangkin ko na ala-alaga ko ngayon... either babalik sa mga magulang nila o mag-aasawa din balang araw.

Alam mo, gumigising ako sa gitna ng gabi, humihingal. Minsan napanaginipan ko'ng mamamatay na ako tapos wala ako'ng kasama, at unti unti na lamang dumidilim ang paligid ko, at wala ako'ng magawa.

Gumising akong sumisigaw, at takot na takot, pero wala ako'ngmakapitan. Nag-iisa lamang pala ako sa aking malaking kuwarto'ng walang laman kundi ako at sangkaterbang gamit.

Nakatira ako sa isang bodega.

parang bodega ang buhay ko, tambakan ng problema ng ibang tao, napagkukunan ng bagay na kailangan. Imbakan. Pero sa malaking bahagi ng panahon, walang buhay.

Totoo, dati'ng bodega ang kuwarto ko, tinanggal ang mga kalat at inayos. nilinis. Titira kasi ako doon.

Maganda pa siya sa ibang kuiwarto ng bahay namin ngayon.

Pero madilim pa din sa gabi. ako lang din naman ang laman. Nahihirapan pa ako dahil araw araw nakikita ko ang mga taong kumakapit sa akin ngayon pero maaaring wala bukas.

Hindi ko na nabuo ang buhay ko dahil sa bang tao.

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang mayroon ako at akala nila palagi ok ako at pag sinasabi ko'ng hindi, ang OA ko daw.

Kanina, nalman ko may tao sa opisina na nagkakagusto pala sa akin. Nasabi ko sa TL ko na nakakatuwa, may nagkaka-crush pa pala sa akin. Ang sagot, "Bakit naman?"

Na parang taka'ng taka siya na ang alam ko walang may gusto sa akin.

Kasi naman, paano mo maallaman kung wala namang nagsasabi sa iyo ano? Kailangan paminsan minsan, sinasabi sa iyo na magaling ka, maganda ka, mahal ka nila.

Human emotional need.

To be loved.

Ang tagal ko nang hindi nararamdaman iyon.

Napanood mo na ba ang GI JOE The Rise of Cobra? Sa isang eksena, sabi ni Scarlett kay Ripcord:

" Emotions are not based on Science. So, if something can't be quantified, then maybe it doesn't exist."

I am ready to accept that theory.

So, somebody, save me.

Happy F^#K*ng 3rd Anniversary

Dear Agnolo,

So it's year #3. And absolutely no chnage whatsoever to my lovelife. A lot of hopefuls... and a few whose fervent longings for me are almost there... so to speak... but yep... ALMOST.

I am yet to see some real action (NO PUN INTENDED)

I meant some REAL dedication. It isn't enough that i make you horny, or you really want me. DUDE, make me believe it! I'm struggling to believe everyone who tells me he wants me. It's just not enough.

None of you guys even got to the point where you sleep with me yet. A few met me... and I don't even know what went wrong there...

So there... I'm still hoping. I am still waiting.

They say 3 is a charm. Three fucking years of guessing what happened, damn you.

Just look at my pictures! Look at whom you dumped! Sure... he'll be ok, he's charming, he's smart, he's cute... AND YOU TOTALLY DESTROYED HIS MOJO.

Now take a good look at you.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN, Kirk.

Do You Realize Why I CONTINUE to Hate You?

He was there again.

He didn't realize I was online that's why he lingered on a while. Then I undid being invisible on YM. And there he was: Silverpad. And as soon as I was visible, he disappeared.

Why doesn't he delete me altogether? I know he knows I'm around that's why he conveniently disappears when I'm online. That would only mean he still has me added.

I invaded his FFS. i bought all his friends and made them suckerpunch, dropkick and bitch-slap him. I know I'm kinda cruel. I numerously crucified him again and again in my blogs, that when you google him, his treachery shows up again and agin to reveal itself to potential employers.

Why am I doing this? Why does my vindictive wrath have no end?

Simple.

I never heard a sorry. It is as simple as that. And you, trying to avoid me  (and so fruitlessly futile, i may say), Only goes to show you show no remorse. The very fact that you did not look back to see how much you hurt me, my life, and people I was to be with in the future because of what you did: You betrayed me, causing my friends to betray me as well.. how could you make my friends keep a secret so sacred to me?

That one cause of closure you prevented me to have by making my friend keep a secret she knew will keep me from moving on...

It was 2 years before she decided to break free from that vow of silence you so forcefully set.

I have not trusted anyone since... and I knonw not how to begin trusting anyone again. That was the price of your cowardice... cowardice you still cling onto.

But I WILL TAKE A DIFFERENT ROAD FROM TODAY.

YOU CAN HIDE ALL YOU WANT AND FEAR ME ALL YOUR DAYS, BUT I WILL NOT CARE. YOU WILL BE A SLAVE TO YOUR GHOST AS LONG AS YOU CARRY YOUR GUILT. AND IT WILL RULE YOUR LIFE.

Slow Day.

Another rest day gone to waste, Agnolo.

Bad trip naman kasi e. May pasok ako bukas. Thurs-Friday pa natapat ang rest day ko, sobrang pagkabitin-bitin naman ng restday. Tapos hindi ko malaman kung aabutan pa ng sweldo ang natitira ko'ng pera, e habang nagtatagal ako sa bahay at nakikita ako ng mga bata, para silang nakakita ng Piggy Bank.

Kulang na lang basagin nila ang bungo ko at mag-expect na dadaloy ang mga barya.

O isabit nila ako at pagpapaluin, baka sumambulat ang mga kendi lollipop at barya (again).

Ala ako'ng pahinga. Trabaho, byahe, bahay... walang pahinga. sumasama ang loob ng mga bata pag gigimik ako, o nag aadyang aalis ako mag isa papuntang SM. Hindi naman ako makabili ng para sa akin pag kasama sila e.

Lalo'ng hindi ako makarampa.

Ano naman ang mapapala ko sa kaka-net, di ba? Hanggat hindi mga totoong tao ang kausap ko---meaning, mga taong nakikita ko talaga sa personal kung kailangan, mga taong nakasalamuha ko na at nakausap nang harapan... hindi made up, na picture ng isang unknown starlet o isang budding pornstar ang kausap ko, O picture n isang unsuspecting person na uy... kilala pala nila ako?

Pahiram ng picture, Ony ha? Ineed to get the point across too...

Picture from Allaboutony.wordpress.com

Hay. Yun lang ang buhay ko.

So kung sino ka man, pls take time to message me... o kaya tell me if you're not really interested, o scared ka sa ugali ko, or whatever... kasi ang nangyayari, nagiging defense mechanism ko na ung pagiging masungit ang shutting people out of my life kasi hindi worth it to keep people na mababa ang tolerance sa tiyaga.

Ayoko ng gustong pagpaguran pa talaga... na pinahuhulaan pa niya kung ano ang iniisip niya.

HOY, HINDI IBIG SABIHIN NG SOULMATE, E NABABASA NIYA ANG ISIP MO.

MAGICIAN ANG HINAHANAP MO, HINDI BOYFRIEND. O Isa ka sa mga nagpapantasyang may Edward Cullen sa totoong buhay?

Ang kailangan ko lang, yung nakakaintindi na may alaga akong bata dito sa bahay, na pag nauwi ako dito at  nalagi magdamag, MAHIRAP NANG TUMAKAS.

CUTE BA?

CUTE DIN BA ITO...

Paano naman ako makakaiskor niyan?

I Have a Splitting Headache

This video made it even worse.




So what does this imply? That Women and Homosexual men just... skip all other steps and just get laid? No problems whatsoever?

So Untrue.

And this video isn't funny.

That Iffy-Yucky Feeling Again

No, NOT love, Agnolo.

Happened last night, really on my way home. So I was sitting next to the window on the bus. On my left, another bus rolled in, nagtapat ang mga windows, nakita ko ang loob: wala halos siya laman, tapos 2 lalaki ang lumipat mula gitna, patungo sa bandang dulo...

And before they actually sat down, they kissed.

They actually saw me staring at them. Alam mo yung itsura na nasa store window ka, tapos nakakita ka ng bagay na gustung-gusto mong bilhin pero walang wala kang pera tapos alam mong ang paraan lang para mabili mo yun ay isanla ang kaluluwa mo sa demonyo?

Yes. ganung feeling.

Not doing great at work either.

Nung umuwi ako at nagconnect sa internet, what I had for comments on Facebook was all about being tigang. I was incensed. Kakabwisit. Meron pang nagreply na oo aaminin ko, crush ko dati.

Hindi ko na siya crush ngayon, kasi ipagdarasal daw niya ako. mlakas daw siya kay bro.

Tingin mo papakinggan  ka ni Bro pag ang dasal mo ganito:

"Lord, sana matapos na ang katigangan ni Ron. Sana makahanap na siya ng lalaki'ng kasex, at maging masaya siya sa pagkantot."

NABGBABASA KA BA NG BIBLE, BAKLA? Nabasa mo na ba sa bible na bawal na bawal yun sa Book of Leviticus? Para mo'ng dinasal na Lord, sana makahanap ako ng mapapatay, o kaya mananakawan, o kaya makakuha ako ng chance to use the Name of my Lord, my God IN VAIN.

Nasopla ko talaga, sabi ko, "Malamang dinggin ka ni Lord."

Nasabi ko, "Nabalitaan mo na ba yung 'Ako Mismo' Movement?" Hindi daw niya alam, I asked him to find it in youtube. What I meant was, imbes na idasal niya ako, sya na mismo magtanggal ng katigangan ko.

Isang ever so ambivolent "Oki." Ang reply.
Hindi ko na siya crush.

Binigyan ko pa mandin siya ng pdf copy ng The Lost Symbol.
Alam ko'ng pinagtatawanan nila ako pag nagsusungit ako. Alam ko'ng pinagtatawanan ako pag inaamin kong kulang ako sa dilig. E pakelam ninyo, bakit pag inaya ko ba kayo, makikipagkantutan ka sa akin?

Ang hirap hirap kayang may mga nagpopost ng mga dilemmas nila about relationship and sex.

E DI MAKIPAGKANTUTAN KA. Puta ka.

I know. I have a colorful language.

Siguro nga gaganda stats ko pag nakipag sex ako. Ewan.

Nabawasan na Naman ang mga Singles...

Dear Agnolo,

As you know, Friday marked the end of Maze Naag's single life. She and Archie tied the knot in a civil ceremony last friday, and they were looking for me eversince.

Syempre ang lolo mo was busy playing dad to his nephew and niece. So kanina lang ako nakapunta, at pinabundat na naman ako, kasi syempre hinintay namin sina Mara at Xie.

Napag usapan namin si Chicco and his new partner, Mack Yu (huwag ilakas, baka akalain ng katabi mo, minumura mo siya.), and hoping this is something he'll stick to this time.

Syempre ako na lang ang single, lahat sila dun may asawa.

So butt of the joke na naman ang pagiging tigang ko. Lahat ng sabihin ko saw suggestive of sex. i mean, HOW CAN THAT BE? Its been years, ano?

I'm way past horny. Feeling ko nga, pag may tinititigan ako na cute guy, feeling niya hinuhubaran ko na siya. THAT'S NOT TRUE! Nagpa-fantasize din ako ng fully clothed person ano? lols.

I now get excited pag nadidikit ang braso to someone that's hot. I miss kisses and hugs and warm bodies pressed against each other. I'm not afraid to admit it. At bakit? Tao lang ako ano?

Na nakakalimutan ng mga nakapaligid sa akin for some reason.

OPO, BIG SURPRISE. TAO PO AKO, INAY.

Nalilibugan din ako. Kailangan ko din ng kaedad ko na sasabihin sa akin na they want me, they like me... stuff like that. Gusto ko din may ka holding hands, o naghahanap sa akin dahil miss nila ako, hindi dahil may kailangan sila.

Naiirita tuloy ako kapag naririnig ang word na favor. Gusto ko'ng maging selfish, and not have anyone hold it against me. But since I'm SINGLE, hindi reason yun.

I was told na nakalista daw ako sa year plan ng simbahan sa amin to direct a play in 2010. Napa HUWAAAAT? ang lolo ninyo. Paano naman nangyari un nang walang nagtatanong kung available ako sa 2010? Bibigyan na naman ba nila ako ng kakarampot na time bago mangyari un, at bibigyan ba nila ako ng mga artistang nag eexpect na bida sila gayong ZERO pa sa Coke ang experience nila?

Yes friends, madami pa kayong hindi alam sa pagkatao ko.

At obviously, nagagamit ang name ko dito sa small town na ito.

Exactly the reason why I choose to remain anonymous in the big city. Abusado mga tao kasi minsan. Hindi na nila naitatanong kung may personal life ako, e. Sana kung dun ko makikita ang taong magliligtas sa akin sa kabaliwang ito. FAT CHANCE.

Nalilito na ako. In Cebuano, naglibog ako.

Ever tigang.

Daddy Mode

Dear Agnolo,

Did I ever mention I waa in charge of 2 human beings?

Iggy, 12 (turning 13 next weekend) and Leona, 3. They occupy my waking hours. Iggy, a budding teenager, who is obsessed on how he looks, and Leona, who clings to me (literally) like a plague. She cries and throws fits when i don't carry her, and she is equally menacing when I carry anyone else. She is going to make a horrible girlfriend someday.

Their parent split (My brother is their biological father) about a year ago, and both parents have found each a new partner. My brother has a new wife and a new set of kids, leaving thse angels (!?!) to my care.

Which is an entire new world of non-dating and being celibate to the ultimate level.

I feel like a single father.

Not that I'm complaining, but my status has not even budged a bit. Iam still known as single, and people do grimace when I turn down dates and events, weddings and christenings when either of these 2 children throw a fit.

I used to save  gazillions of porn in my notebook. That's the whole Idea of getting 160Gb of internal memory. Now it's all dedicated to DORA, Facebook, Pocoyo, Disney, GI Joe and the Transformers. No I will not allow Iggy the gamer to use it for DOTA. That's a desktop's job.

Being Daddy is the cherry on my sundae, the straw that broke my camel's back.

Scared of becoming my own father? Not only do I remind everyone of him, I AM him. Even my anger management issues, are HIM. I have one firm belief that scares me with these kids: No matter how much you try to escape it, YOU WILL BECOME YOUR PARENTS SOMEDAY.

So a word of advise to you kids, future adults of tomorrow: TAKE A GOOD LOOK AT MOM OR DAD; That's going to be you someday, one way or the other, just updated for the times.

The Cullens iPhone Team

Dear Agnolo,

Had training today.

Kit, Kitten, Emil and I headed to the Insular building to attend a 4-hour training on difficult customers. Karamihan ng mga tao dun taga MCC, tapos ung isa taga Prepaid. Tapos kami.

Nakakatawa yung set up namin, kasi you have the room, and in it were mostly MCCs, tapos nakahiwalay kami, syempre yuung nag-iisang taga Prepaid medyo hiwalay din sa kanila. Pero pansin mo na ilang sa amin mga taga customer care. Tech support agents usually flock together, magkakasama kasi kami sa iisang floor e. Prepaid minsan pag kulang sila ng seats nilalagay sa floor namin.

So sa seatting arrangement namin hindi ko maiwasang maalala ang cafeteria scene ng Twilight. So magkakasama ang mga Cullens (kami), Tapos halo halo sila, at si Bella, taga PCS. Natawa lang ako silently.

Kinwento ko kay Kit (through telepathy, lols) napa-"nye" lang siya, Of course it's only natural ano. Parepareho sila ng nature ng job, kakaiba yung sa amin, karamihan pa ng examples, e billing. Halos magkamot na lang ako ng ulo e, Sina Kit at Kitten lang nakaranas ng billing at rate plan sa amin e.

Basta naaliw ako sa thought, it helped me through a boring but almost call-free day.

Hay... Friday na tomorrow... I'll be swamped with calls na naman.

Aerobus

Dear Agnolo,

Di ba i swore never to ride the train in rush hour traffic? Well I found this in EDSA:

It was playing Nicholas Cage movies. Nung pagsakay ko World Trade ang palabas. Naiyak ako sa bandang huli nung na-rescue na ung character ni Cage, sabi niya sa wife niya, " YOU KEPT ME ALIVE."


I had an awful day kanina, none of my crushes were in sight. Siguro sinabi mo sa kanila ung sikreto ko ano? Halos saglit ko lang nakita si ARASHIKAGE. Wala din si BURNT SIENNA. Hindi rin si BACCHUS ang driver ko kanina.

I'm soo sad.

May nag miss call sa akin kanina. Eto number: 09322137778. May kilala ka ba'ng ganun ang number? Tapos kahapon naman eto nagtetext sa akin: 09063314973. "Can i cum over?" ang message.

Sus, sana man lang kilala ko ano? baka mamaya may nagtitrip lang pala sa akin.

Kasi naman madalas ako pagtripan sa mga ganyan. I just silently cry from the inside. (drama) Biruin mo, mabaliw baliw ka na sa solitude dahil hindi ka magtiwala tapos pagtitripan ka lang, pagtatawanan ka minsan.

Lalo pag ganito'ng sobrang pagod ako. Nagdown lahat ng systems namin kanina, tapos ginamit ko kalahati ng Lunch time ko para makahabol sa documentation. Tagasalo pa din ako ng mga winalanghiya ng ibang ahente.Ikaw na nga nakasolve ng problema, gagawin ka pang imnestigador kung sino daw may kasalanan sa pagkawala ng service niya. As in kelangan mayrong may kasalanan? May mas topak pa pala sa akin.

Basta... sad ako kasi wala ung  bumubuhay sa katinuan ko.

Bakit kelangang 3? Kasi hindi naman ganun katindi epekto sa akin ng 1 lang... wala namang akin dun e.

Alam mo, kanina sa bus, may natabi sa akin, naka long sleeves na ang linis tingnan saka ok lang ang katawan, hindi masyadong buff, hindi naman mataba. Tapos ang init ng katawan niya. Tapos napapakiskis sya sa braso ko.

I hate to admit, tinablan ata ako. Ang sarap pala ng kasinglaki mo, tapos nakadantay lang sa katawan mo tapos hindi naman siksikan. Yung kumportable lang. Tapos malinis. Hindi pawisan, o amoy alikabok. Na-miss ko yung may kayakap sa kama.

Ayan na naman ako. tama na'ng pinatikim sa iyo ang braso ano. Ambisyoso ka e.

It's just a crush... no biggie.

Dear Agnolo,

I hope all is well with you.

God, I feel like an idiot. First, I'm blogging like a 14 year-old girl about my secret crushes, Second, I'm confiding to a product of my extremely enhanced imagination.

But hey, for now, you're the only one I can feel safe enough to tell anything about... and you're just in my head. I know it's totally unfair to you... That i make you up and practically dump my trash on you, but you do know that I need you, right? Else I go crazy.

So here it goes.

You know that "crush" I was telling you about?

Well I've got lots of them. (sheepish grin)

I'm going to tell you how I feel about each one... but forgive me if I don't reveal who they are. You see, it's part of the "magic" that they NEVER EVER know. I only tell them when the magic is over and I no longer feel it, ergo, when they're no longer my crushes.

Instead I'll give them codenames so you'll have an idea who they are. God knows what will happen to me if any of them find out. I'll probably quit my job or never show my face in public. I'm not kidding. For quite some time, being connected with me in any form of affection is like social suicide.

Promise me you won't tell...

 

 

CRUSH #1: BACCHUS

As you know I travel from Meycauayan-Makati everyday. So here's my route: I take a tryke from home to the NLEX. From there, I take an FX to Quezon ave, where I take a cab to makati.

Where i get an FX cab, There's this olive skinned, twentysomething driver with droopy eyes and a cleft chin (well, he's double-chinned, really). So, he's a little chubby. I like chubs. Not overly fat though. Besides, I dig guys who drive. I can tell he's pretty religious apart from just being pretty. He has this nose that turns up just the right way. He's one of those guys you'd end up cuddlig with most of the time. No, i don't know his name, and I know He's caught me once or twice staring at im while driving.

Besides, i've always fantasized about sex inside a car. lols.

But alas... he's straight. And I suspect that he's married.

CRUSH #2: ARASHIKAGE

Stress becomes bearable with this guy. Tall, lean and handsome, I know I've been caught staring at him sometimes. WTF, a lot of peole stare at him. I think he's straight, But that doesn't stop me. I have heard once or twice that he could be gay... His facebook doesn't show any trace, and actually negates that. I've never added him; I'd be obvious adding my real life crushes to this thing; My facebook crushes are a different category.

CRUSH #3: BURNT SIENNA

Cuddly guy at work. Angelic faced and olive-skinned. I'd carve his face on a "Santo" if I'd be asked to make one. I love his color, again a nice hue of burnt sienna and red... a healthy sort of olive tone. The nicest smile... Again like guys #1 and 2... straight.

Now that's all I am giving you, Agnolo. You better hold our pact sacred, because IT'S ALL I'VE GOT.

It's pretty hard for me to find inspiration to people. I hardly speak to any of these people. I would have aheart attack if I get to be alone with any one of them. Seriously.

I wouldn't dare lift a finger to touch them. It's like theyre glass and they could break. More accurately, their trust in me would break. You see, i don't get to like a lot of gay people. You'd be lucky of you're openly gay and I speak to you.

I have told people about this story before: At a team building, we headed off to Pansol Laguna, and rented a place with a private pool and 2 bedrooms.

I ended up sleeping in the poolside.

The rooms were intended to separate men and women. The gay men slept in the women's room. The men of course huddled together in the other one.
The men wouldn't let me sleep in their room because "I admitted i liked men". The women wouldn't let me sleep in their room because " I still look like I like women."

I was apalled. So everytime I join an out of town trip it is ALWAYS CRUCIAL how many rooms and if there is at least a couch. I'm planning to bring a sleeping bag on my next trip. I also contemplated buying a small tent.

Again, I'm not exaggerating. That's really what they told me. Sure, I'm a little overreating with the tent thing... but not about the extra room and the couch.
 

I know people don't like me. That's why I deleted some people on facebook... abot 600 people. They added me and they never checked up on me. And when they get deleted, they ask if I know them.

Ugh.

And people who DO like me never get it. I have always been the one to make an effort... I would deserve it if someone nice enough exerted a little bit of effort on me.

There was one who almost came close. Good catch. He's in a relationship now.

Now that's someone who can say that it was my loss, and i wouldn't be able to dispute. It was my loss.

I know what my handicap is when it comes to relationships... i'm scared.

So NOTE TO PEOPLE PLANNING TO ASK ME OUT: I AM SCARED, BUT NOT ENTIRELY UNWILLING. IT'S ONLY A MATTER OF DISARMING MY FEAR.

Be nice. soothe me.
Who cares, right?

Anyway, I'll always have you, Agnolo.



Good night.

Sinumpa ng Kawalan ng Sentido Comon ang Pilipinas

Hay naku, Agnolo,

Malate na ako, magdamagan na ako'ng mapanis sa bus, pero HINDI'NG HINDI MO AKO MAPAPASAKAY NG TREN NG GANITONG ORAS.

Putangina, hindi na ata gagana ang charger ko. Gago'ng mga desperadong tanga, siksik nang siksik, napitpit ung cord ko, at malamang nadagdagan ang white spots sa screen ng laptop ko. Buti na lang wala talagang bomba na nakakalusot kundi papasok pa lang ng mga tao, sumabog na siguro un dahil sa pressure ng mga katawan ng mgatao sa loob.

Pag nakita na'ng puno ang tren, HUWAG KA NANG MAKISIKSIK.

Hindi nga siguro maganda ang education system dito sa Pilipinas, kasi walang natutunan ang mga tao tungkol sa physics. NO TWO MATTER CAN OCCUPY THE SAME SPACE AT THE SAME TIME.

Paano nga kaya kung may BOMBA na naipuslit sa MRT ano? During rush hour pa, kung saan ang mga Pinoy na pinagpipilit-pilitan talaga ang gusto nila at ang Ultimate Motto ay "KUNG MAILULUSOT, ILUSOT" ang umiiral... Malamang may irerepoprt na naman ang CNN tungkol sa atin.

Magtaka ka pa bakit hindi umuunlad ang Pilipinas. Bakit pag dinala mo ang mga Pinoy sa ibang bansa gumaganda ang buhay nila kahit papaano? Kasi po, dito, MAKAKAPAL ANG MGA MUKHA NATIN. NAGPAPAKATIGAS ANG ULO NATIN DITO KASI DITO WE HAVE STUFF LIKE UTANG NA LOOB, KAHIHIYAN, PAKIKISAMA (na kung titingnan mo, abuso talaga, form of peer pressure).

Were so proud pa nga sa mga katangian na ito na hindi natin alam, ito na ang nakakasira sa atin dahil sa GREAT LENGTHS TO ACHIEVE IT.

Napapaputangina talaga ako sa MRT. Iisang lugar pa lang yan. Makikita mo na kanya-kanya na ang mga tao, wala nang pakundangan sa kapwa, at kahit yung hindi naman talaga garapalan, mapipilitang magfing garapal klesa maging biktima ng stampede, o internal injuries, at ang iba, nakikiganti na lang dahil YAMOT NA YAMOT NA.

Putangina talaga, Sinasabi ko sa inyo, magturuan na kayo ng magturuan kung kaninong pulitiko kyo magagalit pero ang sinasabi ko, hindi yang mga pulitiko na iyan ang naturo sa inyo ng mga manners ninyo sa kalsada o sa trabaho.

Nakikita mno pa bang tumutulong sa bahay ang mga bata?

Nakikitaan mo pa ba ng civic responsibility ang mga kabataan ngayon?

Nasaan na ang mga taong nakakaisip ng mabuti sa kapwa? Nilamon na rin ba sila ng kawalan ng sentido comon? Walang ginawa ang mga Pinoy kundi magturuan ng magturuan, AMBIBILIS NATING MANGHINGI, PERO PAG ORAS NA NG BIGAYAN NAWAWALA TAYO.

Tamaan na ang tamaan, OO hindi ako perpekto, pero kung hindi ko sasabihin ito, SINO SA ATIN ANG MAKAKA-REALIZE NA NANGYAYARI NGA ITO?

Accept it. Accept it.

SAWNG SAWA NA AKONG MAG ACCEPT. MAGSALITA LANG ANG KAYA KO, KAYA GAGAWIN KO ITO. PINUPUNA KO LAMANG NAG NAKIKITA KO.

E DI KUNG AYAW NINYO AKONG MAGSALITA, WAG NINYO'NG IPAPUNA.

Di ba?

Naiinggit ako

Dear Agnolo,

Naiinggit ako.
I am so green with envy... ilang weeks na. Pano naman kasi, sinusundo ng mga jowa nila yung mga officemates ko, at hinihintay pa talaga sila na matapos sa work nila habang nakatambay dun. Kilala ko pa ung isa.

Nakakainggit sila sooobra. Huhuhu.

Antagal ko na masungit indi na ata ako maiinlove ulit ng tulad years back. Nawala na ata talaga tiwala ko sa mga ... ehem, tao.

Binulungan ako ni TL, "Magjowa ka na rin kasi."

Without thinking, naisagot ko, "Saang planeta naman ako hahanap ng papatol sa akin?"

I think may natawa ayaw lang ipaalam sa akin.

Well what I blurted out was true. I cannot get someone I fancy. Hindi naman mataas standards ko e. hindi ako ganun... pero may hinahanap lang talaga akong type ng tao. kaso yung natitipuhan ko hindi rin pwede, e.

I dunno.

Siguro totoo nga sabi nila.

Maybe I'm destined to be single for life.

In that case, dapat na talaga ako humiwalay dito sa amin kasi mauubos ang ipon ko sa sarili ko... wala naman palang mag aalaga sa akin pagtanda ko.

At malapit na yun.